Self love is not always so easy to do. For me, the color black in clothing represents just that. Because we all know that black makes one look skinnier - and thats just something very skinny people dont want to look more of. At least not in real life, whole different story with the modeling world of course.
Kind of a paradox, when considering that very often it is the object of envy too. And when it is an envy thing, it is a blame thing. When I was still working in Tallinn Mercedes Benz representative office, one day I went to the cafe there to grab a coffee and a fresh salad as an addition to my otherwise so unhealthy and fatty lunch meal. I stated the order clearly and got almost a shouting reply repeating my order word for word. While the shouting still echoed over the whole cafe, not only the bartender, but the whole cafe of people examined me from toes to the top of my hair as if they had just gotten the proof of me dieting as hell in order to fit into socially ideal frames of beauty! :D
But it is also a misunderstood thing. People know almost naturally how weight is gained - you just eat and get it. However, even though this rule applies to most, it is not universal and not governing all. I have been this way from the day I was born, no ups and downs in weight, not without exercise, not when I became a vegetarian, not when I eat a huge chocolate bar every single day.
And another thing is, that excess weight is usually considered a TOTALLY TABOO topic, yet someones skinniness completely free to discuss anywhere by anyone and absolutely at random times. Thanks to years of experience I can absolutely tell who is mentioning it as a compliment, who with envy and who is puzzled about it. Yep. :D But I ABSOLUTELY LOVE LOVE those unbelievably sweet people who are trying to feed me loads of all the best foods, because they sincerely wish me to get my stomach full! If they only knew it is a bottomless whole! Hahaha! :)
As for all those people who gain weight more easily - you are the lucky ones to survive any apocalyptic hunger. At least according to BBC doc Why Are Thing People Not Fat! Available with a littlebit poor quality at Youtube too: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dAQr77QMJiw
One of most recent second hand shopped combos - a top slightly too big too.
Absolutely faux fur! Absolutely quality! Sec hand bought costume, skirt tailored fit for my skinny bum.
Sec hand bought retro dress, also slightly fitted.
So proud of myself finally embracing the black and the skinniness!
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